For those who wait patiently for You,
For those who come to You for help,
Rather than taking matters into their own hands,
You promise that they will mount up with wings like an eagle,
That they will run and not grow tired,
That they will walk and never become weary.
In the depth of my despair, and in my heartache and rejection,
Your promises seemed so remote, so obscure, and so meaningless.
I was so certain that they were beyond my reach,
That I never even considered them to be real or tangible.
To me, they were nothing more than sappy, poetic words.
In my pain and my heartache, all I wanted was relief,
Which at times was so intense I thought it would never end.
I begged You to answer my prayers and my demands,
Which You never seemed to do, adding to my anguish.
I felt to unloved and abandoned—even by You
That my hurt was magnified tenfold, maybe twenty.
But that’s not what was happening at all,
Which I can now see clearly, as I pause and reflect.
You did answer my prayers—all of them, but You just said, “No.”
You loved me enough to not allow me to gain things,
Which were clearly not in my best interest to have.
In my disquietude and short-sightedness,
I couldn’t understand or fathom Your will, but now I do.
Because I chose Your way instead of a self-destructive path,
You have brought me to higher plateau than I’ve ever experienced—
To a place where I am now capable
Of mounting up with wings like an eagle—
And able to achieve fulfillment beyond my wildest dreams.
Because You restore the years the locust have eaten away,
I feel invigorated and filled with resolve,
Far younger and more energetic than I have felt in decades.
I know I am capable of being
Everything You ever intended for me to be.
As my strength and faith grow daily, I feel
Empowered to run and not grow weary—to walk and never faint.
In Your faithfulness, You have lifted me up,
Even when I was certain that You had abandoned me,
Caring little about me and less about my plight.
Now, with my vision and joy restored,
I willingly bow my knee and say,
“Thank You, Father, for being such
A loving, gracious, and compassionate God.”