Father,
For those who wait patiently for You,
For those who come to You for help,
Rather than taking matters into their own hands,
You promise that they will mount up with wings like an eagle,
That they will run and not grow tired—
That they will walk and never become weary.
In the depth of my despair, in my heartache and rejection,
Your promises seemed so remote, obscure, and meaningless,
That I was certain they were beyond my reach.
I never considered them to be real or tangible.
To me, they were nothing more than sappy, poetic words.
In my pain and heartache, all I wanted was relief,
Which at times was so intense I thought it would never end.
I begged You to answer my prayerful demands,
Which You never did, adding to my distress.
I felt so unloved and abandoned—even by You,
Which magnified my pain tenfold, maybe twenty.
You did answer my prayers, by just saying, “No.”
You loved me enough to prevent me form situations,
Which were clearly not in my best interest to obtain.
In my disquietude and short-sightedness,
I couldn’t understand or fathom Your will, but now I can.
Because I chose Your path instead of my self-destructive way,
You have brought me to higher plateau—
To a place where I am now capable
Of mounting up with wings like an eagle, as promised.
Because You restore the years eaten away by locust,
I feel refreshed—invigorated with resolve,
As I experience increased energy.
As my strength and faith increasingly abound,
I feel empowered to run and not grow weary—
To walk and never faint.
Now, with my vision and joy restored,
I willingly bow my knee and thank You
For caring enough to tell me no.
Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am you God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10-11)
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