As the vicissitudes of life have turned against me,
And it seems like nothing but misfortune
Will be in my path for the foreseeable future,
Anxiety and fretful worry fill my days.
When I awaken in the middle of the night,
I am filled with dread and foreboding.
My mind races and my heart churns apprehensively.
Nevertheless, at the deepest level of my being,
A quiet persistent voice tells me to never give up.
When I rise in the morning, I am filled with resolve,
Knowing that this quiet voice came from You.
As the days pass and my pressures increase,
I feel battered and beaten at every turn.
It seems like everything that can go wrong certainly does.
Maintaining a positive outward demeanor,
I remain determined to do the next right thing,
Regardless of what that might be.
I have no other choice but to follow this path.
Despite my resolve, my insides feel numb and crushed,
As pressures from my circumstances intensify,
Weighing me down, relentlessly grinding me to despair.
As I bow my knee and ask for relief,
Which I know can only come from You,
I realize that I have no answers within me.
In the quietness of my heart,
Your voice continues to resonate,
Telling me to never, never give up.
As the weeks turn into months, with no respite from my travails,
Having been abandoned by all who once wished me well,
All that remains are those who desire me harm.
I feel undone, fearing that my heart will break,
But I have no choice but to press forward.
There is no alternative, and I cannot abandon my purpose.
It’s not in my nature to do so, and that will never change.
With that in mind, I bolster myself repeatedly affirming
That I will never give up—never, never, never give up.
Lord, my life is in Your hands, and You alone know
What day my complete restoration will come.
Until that time, I know what I must do.
I must relentlessly press forward
And never, never, never, never give up.
Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised. (Hebrews 10:35-36)
— Jack Watts, My Story
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