Waiting Patiently for God
Don’t Give Up before the Miracle Begins—AA Slogan
You’ve brought my soul out of bondage—
Out of the shackles of my
Self-defeating alcoholism for a purpose,
Which is beyond my capacity to fathom.
In the blindness of my pain and distress,
Which have filled my days and nights,
I have implored You relentlessly,
Insisting that You ease my pain
And grant me the desires of my heart.
Regardless of my repeated complaints,
Which I’ve audaciously called prayers,
You have never relented—not even a little.
You have never blessed my demands
Nor allowed me to have my own way,
Regardless of my fervent insistence that You do.
Unmoved, You have just gone about the task
Of transforming my heart from the inside out,
Changing me at the core of my being,
Making me a far better version of myself
Than I have ever been or dreamed of being.
Now, as my distress and angst have abated
And my painful sorrows have relinquished,
For the first time I can look back
And be thankful that You understand me
Better than I understand myself.
Your plan is better than what I desired or imagined.
As I come to fathom all that You have done,
I marvel at the changes You have orchestrated.
You have strengthened me, made me whole,
And have made me grateful for all You have done.
Having no idea what’s in store for the future,
I gladly give You permission to finish
The work You have begun in me.
Let my petty, whining nature become a memory—
A distant recollection of my childish ways—
As I seek Your will rather than dictating my own,
How lovely on the mountains are the feet of him who brings good news, who announces peace and brings good news of happiness, who announces salvation, and says to Zion, “Your God reigns!” Listen! Your watchmen lift up their voices, they shout joyfully together; for they will see with their own eyes when the Lord restores Zion. Break forth, shout joyfully together, you waste places of Jerusalem; for the Lord has comforted His people, He has redeemed Jerusalem. The Lord has bared His holy arm in the sight of all the nations; that all the ends of the earth may see the salvation of our God. (Isaiah 52:7-10)