Archive for August, 2015




Nothing seems clear to me.

I pray and seek Your face,

But You seem so far away—

So distant and unapproachable.

My life is a mess, and nothing I do

Seems to work or to be the wise course.

I believed I have been doing the right thing—

But maybe I haven’t. Instead, maybe

All of my efforts to help have been futile.

Perhaps, I have been making things worse,

But this is not what I want, nor do

I believe it is Your will to cleave to wrongdoing,

While avoiding the truth.


Father, having walked in error for so long,

Believing I have been right,

When I have been dead wrong,

I don’t know how to reverse my behavior.

Unknowingly, I have embraced many lies.

I have lost the ability to stand for the truth,

Which was once my strength.

Now, being candid seems so foreign to me,

But it doesn’t seem foreign to You.

Transparency is at the core of Your nature.

Please help me change my ways, Father.

Restore wisdom to me, and add discretion.

But most of all, provide me with discernment.

Establish me in righteousness, so that

I may become as powerful an example

For Good, as I once was forEvil,



If we say that we have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth, (1 JN 1:6, NAS)


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Having said yes to alcohol for so long,

It has become an integral part of my life.

I can’t imagine what my existence would be without it,

But I also know that it is destroying me—

Just as surely as if I was drinking poison.

I know I must make some fundamental changes,

But I’ve become so engrained in my ways

That I’m not sure I can make them. In fact,

Without Your active involvement,

I’m certain that I can’t. I will fail.


I need Your help right now, Father—

Not tomorrow or the next day—right this minute.

Give me the strength to say “No” to alcohol.

Provide me with the intestinal fortitude

To “gut things out” until I am no longer

Consumed by the desire to pick up a drink.

Strengthen me with power in the inner man.

Without Your help, I fear my sobriety

Will be disjointed and short-lived,

But with Your help, my life can be filled

With joy, meaning and purpose once again.

Thank You for being there and for me,



Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And do not lean on your own understanding.

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He will make your paths straight, (Proverbs 3:5-6, NAS.)

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According to the statistics from AARP, for the next eighteen years, boomers will be turning sixty-five at a rate of about 10,000 a day.

What does this possibly mean regarding this life stage? It means it is time to redefine what you are going to do the rest of your life, if you are a baby boomer. It changes who we market to in the consumer world. It is a new world of opportunity for baby boomers.

You hear the stats on TV shows and read about them in articles that many baby boomers have not saved enough to retire on. It is all gloom and doom. However, it does not have to be that way. We can make up for not saving a nest egg by not retiring to the lazy boy. We can create products, make music, write books, and develop restaurants and other places of entertainment that catch the interest of the 10,000 people a day turning sixty-five. A baby boomer knows what a baby boomer needs.

There is a quote, “Rich people produce; poor people consume.” If you don’t have that nest egg yet, and you are at retirement age, life is just beginning for you. Get off the couch, don’t take that nap, it is time to get busy! You have an audience waiting to purchase your visions and dreams. One such individual doing this is author, Jack Watts.

Jack Watts has lived a large life, with the ups and downs we have all faced. Everyone has a story. Some have let their stories defeat them. Then there are those senior citizens that are realizing they have the world in their hands! Jack Watts is one of those baby boomers that have no plans of letting up. There is still too much life and opportunity ahead; retirement is not for this ambitious man.

Jack grew up in an Irish home where alcohol, physical, and emotional abuse were everyday occurrences. He became an alcoholic himself. He is a survivor of religious abuse. He has had his heart broken several times. He has had family members steal from him. When he was young, he was educated, handsome, and talented. Now that he is a senior citizen, he is educated, handsome, talented, and full of life experiences.

When he became a “senior citizen,” he knew his life was just beginning. He finally gained the insight he needed. He ultimately learned about setting boundaries, and he conclusively realized it was time to develop his writing skills. His stories provide a look at his life. His story is raw and real. His story is one about never giving up on yourself. Jack has the fighter instinct in him; when he hit bottom, he knew he would find a way to make it to the top again. Jack is still climbing mountains and reaching to the stars.

He has made fortunes and lost fortunes in his lifetime. Reading Jack Watts’ books and friending him on Facebook allows you into his life where there are lessons of hope to all of us. Go to Amazon for a listing of all his books. His series, beginning with Full Moon Frenzy is a fiction masterpiece. In his books, his characters are well developed, and some of the characters are baby boomers themselves. His books are being considered to become a TV series. He did not start this until he became a senior citizen. Ask yourself, “What it is inside of me that I need to start before another day goes by?”

He writes a blog called, Pushing Jesus, which has readers in 140 countries. His radio show in Atlanta is heard all over the world via the Internet. He has writen for the Huffington Post. He is an ordinary man, like you, like me, but he is magnificent because his life is not being wasted sitting on a couch with a remote in his hand. What is he doing is something we all can do. If you to make the effort to live a fully engaged life, you can.

Because Jack Watts stands up for his beliefs, he has those that are jealous and want to see him fail. Many of us fold and quit when faced with the things this man has encountered. He still faces challenges because he dares to bring about change. Jack does not fold; he stands strong. He is an inspiration. He is proof that age is not an excuse to bury our talents. We can still make an impact throughout the world. Jack is one of those baby boomers that is redefining what it means to be a senior citizen.

If you are worried that it is too late, that you have no money in the bank, that your soul is unfilled, look to people like Jack Watts for inspiration.


You are a baby boomer; don’t go to your grave without using the talents and passions that are within you. Don’t waste your time watching TV and feeling sorry for the condition of your life. Every day there are 10,000 people turning sixty-five. There are ten thousand people needing to hear your story of triumph. There are ten thousand people ready to buy your book. Ten thousand new people each day want your product. The masses of baby boomers want to listen to the lyrics of the song you have yet to write, the picture you want to paint or to hear what you have to say. For the first time in history, the doors are wide open for baby boomers to redefine our future; we do not have to settle for what is; what if; or why me. The world is ripe for our dreams and goals. Live your life so full that someone wants to write an article about how you inspired them.

By Shelley Stutchman

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Half measures availed us nothing—AA Slogan

Alcoholics Anonymous is by nature quite secretive. Ensuring each attendee’s privacy is something people in the program take very seriously, as they should. Consequently, there have been no clinical studies allowed to demonstrate the long-term success rate of the program. Nevertheless, some things are apparent, and the news isn’t good.

The effectiveness of AA for helping people sustain prolonged sobriety is appalling. For those who love an alcoholic, often that person’s hope is that the alcoholic will start attending meetings, get sober, and remain sober. The assumption is that AA will work and their loved one will become responsible once again, but such an outcome is rare.

The truth is only 5 percent of those who pick up a white chip make it to ninety days of continuous sobriety. Even worse, only 5 percent of those who make it to ninety days make it to two years. This means that only a few who begin the journey to sobriety actually achieve it.

Obviously, if you have a drinking problem, or think you may have a drinking problem, you want to be among the few who actually become sober. The key to success is making the commitment to change. Most come into AA, hoping it will work, but they lack the determination to make it work. Being tentative, their chances for success are virtually non-existent. In a 1990 survey—one of the few sanctioned by AA—only 5 percent of those who picked up a white chip continued to attend AA meetings one year later.

When I first went to AA, it was because my girlfriend insisted that I go. Like most, my commitment was marginal. Although we broke up soon thereafter, I continued to attend the meetings. Honestly, it was refreshing to no longer have hangovers, but my commitment was marginal at best.

About six months into sobriety, I was in the Virgin Islands with a different young lady—not my proudest moment. We had been out in the ocean all morning in a boat I rented to explore the islands. Being hot, we moored at a dock to get something to drink, but we were not allowed to leave the boat unattended. So, she went to get us some water, while I waited on the boat.

When she returned, she had two cans of Budweiser in her hands but no water—not a drop. Because we had already exceeded our allotted time to moor, I had to head back out to sea, and I was very thirsty.

So, she held out the can of beer and said, “Go ahead, drink it. I won’t tell anybody.”

This was my moment to truth. For me, it might as well have been Satan’s temptation in the wilderness, and I knew it. Although I was bone dry, I didn’t drink the beer. This was the exact moment that achieving sober assumed the importance it needed to have in my life. I resisted temptation, when everything inside of me was saying, “Go ahead, nobody will ever know.”

If I hadn’t been strong, I doubt I would still be alive to relate the story, knowing how lethal alcoholism can be.

When we arrived back to the States, I parted ways with the girl but not with AA. It became more important to me than ever.

The key for me, as it is with every other problem drinker, was my determination to turn my mind and my will over to God, allowing Him to change me from the inside out. That was my defining moment, but this can be yours.

Jack Watts

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Discarding Arrogance and Pretense


Pain is the touchstone of spiritual growth—AA Slogan




In my pain and anguish,

When my heart was broken,

And I thought darkness would overwhelm me,

I felt lost and all alone, but I wasn’t.

Despite how I felt, You were there with me,

Diligently working in my heart—

Stripping me of all of my pretense,

Stripping me of all of my arrogance,

Stripping me of all of my self-serving ways—

Each of which had made a wasteland of my life.

Although Your child, I had no concern or awareness

Of the direction You intended for me to follow.

My only concern was relief from my discomfort,

But Your goals were far greater than mine.

I thought my anguish would never end—

That I would never smile at the future—

But I was wrong about this, as well.

I knew the desires of my heart

And asked You repeatedly to grant them,

But You never would, which saddened me at the time.

What I have gained through my loss though,

Has had more value than I could have imagined.

Out of the abyss, You have raised me up.

You have placed my feet on solid, immovable rock.

You have strengthened me with power

In the inner man—at the center of my being.


No longer fearful or timid, I’m resolute and confident.

Instead of being apprehensive, I am calm, strong, and sane.

And it’s all because You have changed my heart—

Transforming my perspective about what has value.

Without Your loving, consistent care,

I would never have learned my lessons

And would have been destined to repeat my mistakes

Over and over again, like an unreasoning animal—

Not like a man—not like a child of the King.

To compensate for what I have wasted in dissipation,

You reached into the pit—into the mire—

Into emotional carnage of my life and redeemed me,

Providing me with a future and a hope,




Teach me to do Thy will, for Thou are my God; Let Thy good Spirit lead me on level ground. For the sake of Thy name, O Lord, revive me. In Thy righteousness bring my soul out of trouble. (Psalm 143:10-11)

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I am in a deep, deep hole,

Oppressed by those who

Arrogantly call on Your Name,

But whose intentions are Evil.

In their scheming, avaricious hearts

Resides nothing but hateful malice,

As they plot my destruction.

Not being prepared for their attack,

My response has been slow and disjointed.

This is not what I wanted or deserved,

But it is the hand I have been dealt.


I need Your help, Father,

Not in the future but this very minute.

Hear my prayer and know my heart.

I am gripped with fear, as I watch

Their plan to crush me unfold.

Smiling, they congratulate themselves

At the success of their mischief.

Dismissing their deceitfulness,

They relentlessly move forward,

Congratulating themselves for their success.


I am badly shaken and unable

To defend myself or fight back—

Not like I should—not after having

Been blindsided by their attack.

But You are always vigilant, Father.

You have calculated their wickedness

From its inception and understand

Every evil plot they have schemed.

Confound them, and do not

Allow them to have dominion over me.

Bring Your retribution upon them instead,

While protecting me from their harm.


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Pursuing Your Purpose


If it is meant to be, I can’t stop it. If it isn’t God’s will, I can’t make it happen—AA Slogan



My spirit has been rejuvenated.

Even my step feels lighter,

As the burden of my past has been

Lifted from my shoulders.

Now free to walk into the future,

Unencumbered by guilt, shame, and remorse,

Which have produced self-defeating behavior,

I want my life to have more meaning

Than the mediocrity that has become my routine.

The pursuit of valueless materialism no longer

Has the appeal that it once had, which is freeing.

Even my definition of success has changed.

My spirit has been awakened, and I want

To spend each day, which You have numbered,

Doing what You would have me do—

What You have prepared for me to do.


I’ve learned that I can more accurately

Understand Your leading by looking back,

Than I can by looking toward the future.

Whatever You have in store for me, Lord,

Regardless of what that might be,

This is where I want to spend my days.

Having wandered so far from You in the past,

I know the mischief I am capable of doing,

And that is not what I want for my life.

Guard my heart, Father, so that

I will not wander away from You again,

Pursuing fruitless, meaningless diversions.

Let my heart rejoice in Your ways.

Give me peace, purpose, and the resolve

To accomplish Your will each day,

For as many as I have remaining,



Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. (Psalm 19:14)

Jack Watts

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