There is pain in recovery; misery is optional—AA Slogan
When I come before You,
I dutifully pay lip service
To how awesome You are.
When I say it, I mean it—sort of.
I know it’s true, but I must admit
That what I’m really interested in is me.
I acknowledge Your sovereignty because
I want “things,” from You—lots of things.
I want You to bless me—
To make my life easier and, most of all,
To rubberstamp my will as Your own.
Nearly all of my prayers focus on
What You can do for me.
I’m interested in Your blessings—
Not in getting to know You better.
This is the truth, and I need to be honest.
I wish I were a better, more selfless person.
I wish I had more character than this, but I don’t.
Admitting the truth about who I am embarrasses me,
But You know my heart and what I’m really like.
I need You to continue making changes in me.
Teach me to seek You for Yourself,
And not simply for what You can do for me.
Give me a heart to yearn for wisdom,
Rather than just Your generous benevolence.
Teach me to look beyond my limited world
To think about the needs of others.
Give me a heart for someone other than myself.
I recognize my selfishness; it is ever before me,
But You are changing me from the inside out,
Helping me to become a better, more thoughtful person—
A person worthy to bear Your name,
The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; Who can understand it? I the Lord search the heart. I test the mind, even to give to each man according to his ways, according to the results on his deeds. (Jeremiah 17:9-10)