Archive for June, 2018

MY PRAYER: Father,
There was a path that looked so promising—
A road that seemed like it was Your way,
But it was not. It required far too much
Compromise to be something You would honor.
In the deepest recesses of my heart,
I knew this—despite each of my protestations.
Nevertheless, I followed this errant path,
Which I knew was the wrong way to travel,
Paying a terrible price for doing so.
Later, with no other acceptable recourse,
I came back to You, just as I have always done—
Sorrowful, humbled, and crushed—with hat in hand,
Ready and willing to accept necessary change.
This time, instead of medicating my pain with alcohol,
I endured the compulsory heartache for a period,
Which I thought was far too long, but You knew
Was exactly the amount of time required for my healing.
You promised that, if I would humble myself,
You would exalt me at the proper time.
I didn’t believe this was true—not literally,
Nor that You would actually do this—not for me.
But You have done as You promised, and I can clearly see
Your hand in the restoration of my life.
Now, I stand strong, far wiser, and far more resilient,
With a renewed countenance that is calm and serene.
Humbling myself because I had no alternative,
I never considered that—in Your wisdom—
You had orchestrated the circumstances of my life
In such a way that my only alternative was to look to You.
This wasn’t the road I would have chosen for myself,
But it’s the way You have chosen for me.
I wish I could say that I have learned each of my lessons,
But I know who I am. I know that in my heart—
I am prone to wander—prone to leave the God I love.
Father, take my heart—take and seal it—so that
I will never have to follow this fruitless path again,
Knowing that it leads to nowhere worthwhile,
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MY PRAYER: Father,
I have wandered so far from You—
From Your ways, from Your leading,
From Your purpose, and from Your love.
At first, it didn’t seem like such a great distance,
But, over time, I have come to realize
My wanderings have been far greater
Than I could ever have imagined.
I know I need to return to You,
But now that I see how wide the gap has become,
The way back seems perilously long.
In my reaction to being wounded,
I have behaved in ways that have
Not only injured me but others as well.
I know this is true, and it grieves me.
I am so sorry for having been so hurtful,
Which I acknowledge I had no right to be.
I realize how wayward I have become.
As I begin my long journey back to wholeness,
I know I need to make amends to those
I have harmed along the way.
It never occurred to me that I might have
Treated others in the same way I have been mistreated.
Just thinking about my actions makes my heart ache.
Father, I am grieved because of my behavior.
Forgive me; restore my relationship to You.
Be with me as I reach out to those I have wounded.
Help me learn from my egregious errors, so that
I will never feel the desire to drift so far away again,
Jack Watts

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Heavenly Father,
When I reflect upon my life from the days of my
Mischievous youth to those of my grandiose twenties,
I knew You were there for me and would never leave,
But in all honesty, life was all about me—my goals,
My ambitions, my desires, and my striving to achieve.
Although I knew You, and had already accepted Christ
To be my Lord and Savior, it was still all about me
And my perpetual desire to become great for You.
Then, as so often is the case, all of my pretentiousness
And flamboyant thoughts of what I was going to do for You
Were dashed upon the rocks of life’s relentless challenges.
Instead of being a strong, bold, courageous, and immovable force,
I became timid, hesitant, and demurring—almost as if my faith
Could only be expressed in safe places and with safe people.
I would love to say this hasn’t been the true report about me,
But in the deepest recesses of my heart, I know that it is.
I need to tell You that it is and confess my timidity openly
And honestly. I also need to acknowledge that this is not
Who I want to be, or who I intend to be, from this day forward.
Instead, I want to fervently assert that I Am Not Ashamed
Of You, of Your Son, of Your Word, or of the Gospel that has
The power to penetrate the darkness and transform it into light.
I Am Not Ashamed to be the person You have called me to be,
And I Am Not Ashamed to stand strong for You, for my family,
Or for our mighty nation, the United States of America. Father,
For as many of my numbered days as there are left to be lived,
I intend to use each of them to be the salt that is required to counter
Our depraved, corrupt, and decadent society, as each of us
Relentlessly, vigorously, and consistently transforms our
Beloved nation into the “city on a hill” You desire it to be.
Through the power of the Holy Spirit, which is necessary
To strengthen, sustain, and lead me, this is my commitment to You,
—Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: Father,
Now that I have spelled out
The exact nature of my behavior,
And have written it down,
I feel naked and completely vulnerable.
Reviewing it gives me a feeling of relief,
But it also makes me feel insecure and ashamed.
Now that I have brought to light
My deepest, most intimate secrets,
I fear the ridicule, condemnation, and rejection of others.
Perhaps I will even be mocked by my confidant—
The person I have chosen to be my confessor—
Just like I have been betrayed by so many others.
I know this is not a realistic fear,
But the thought of it creates anxiety in my heart.
I know You have forgiven my self-defeating behavior,
But humans are rarely as gracious as You are.
Please prepare the heart of my friend—
The one I have chosen to reveal my past to.
When I expose myself completely, hiding nothing,
I pray that Your love and acceptance will be
What I experience and not the reprimands
Of a person who has become self-righteous—
Someone who cannot or will not
Understand and accept me, exactly the way I am.
Father, I have worked diligently and come so far.
Help me continue to be vulnerable and forthright,
Which I know is Your will for my life.
Stand with me, Lord, so that I can
Boldly state the exact nature of my misconduct,
With humility, casting aside my fear of being censured.
Heal me in all of my broken places and relieve
The burden of guilt I have carried for so many years.
Free me to walk into the future unencumbered.
Free me to become the person You have created me to be,
Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: Father,

The darkness has lifted—

Darkness permitted by You

To refine my character,

Purging each of my childish ways

And making me more like

The man I’m supposed to be—

The man I’ve always wanted to be.

In the midst of my despair,

When at night I longed for the day,

And in the daytime desired it to be evening,

When sorrows made it difficult to breathe,

You were always there beside me,

Even when I was certain You were not.

As fear relentlessly rattled every fiber of my being,

You continued transforming me from the inside out—

Ever mindful of my frailties and weaknesses.

You purged, pruned and cleansed me from within,

Making me into a far better version of myself

Than I have ever been.

Then, one day, as I waited for my debilitating gloom

To return, which had become my daily routine,

It was gone—vanished like it had never been present—

Leaving me stronger, more resilient, and far wiser.

My purpose also returned to me, along with my smile.

I embraced life with renewed enthusiasm—

No longer chained to my heartache—

No longer imprisoned by my distress.

Now, having been elevated to a higher plateau,

I can thank You for making me a new person—

With estimable character qualities I considered beyond reach,


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MY PRAYER: Father,
For those who wait patiently for You,
For those who come to You for guidance,
Rather than taking matters into their own hands,
You promise they will mount up with wings like eagles—
That they will run and not grow weary—
That they will walk and never faint.
In the depth of my despair, in my intense heartache,
Your promises seemed to be ethereal and remote.
They also seemed so obscure and unattainable,
That I was certain they were beyond my grasp.
I didn’t consider them to be real or tangible.
They felt like nothing more than sappy, poetic platitudes.
In my pain and heartache, which at times was so intense,
All I wanted was relief from suffering I thought was endless.
I begged You to answer my insistent demands,
Which You never did, adding to my distress.
I felt so unloved and abandoned—even by You—
That it magnified my pain tenfold, perhaps twenty.
Now, I realize You did answer me. You simply said, “No.”
You loved me enough to prevent me from suffering
Negative consequences that were not in my best interest.
In my disquietude and short-sightedness,
I couldn’t understand or discern Your will, but now I can.
Because I chose Your path, instead of my willful
Self-destructive vices to ease my pain and discomfort,
You have brought me to a higher plateau—
To a place where I am now capable
Of mounting up with wings like an eagle—
Just as You promised in Your Word.
Because You restore the years the locust have eaten away,
I feel refreshed and invigorated, with a determined resolve
That has increased my energy dramatically.
As my strength and faith continue to abound,
I feel empowered to run and not grow weary.
Thank You for refusing to honor my foolish demands,
Which would have caused me more needless heartache,

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