MY PRAYER: Father,
I’ve come before You so many times,
To tell You about my life—
About my woes, my heartaches and my failures.
I have come to tell You who I really am—sort of.
I want You to know me, but only from my perspective,
Which certainly is not an accurate picture of who I am.
I know this. It is why I only tell You
About myself in bits and pieces.
But now that my circumstances have become
Too much for me to bear—too much for me to shoulder;
I am forced to be completely honest and forthright.
Until now, my admissions have been begrudging.
I’ve refused to consider that more has been needed—
That a complete cleansing of my soul has been required.
As I continue on my journey to recovery and wholeness,
I want to unburden myself from all of my shame,
All of my guilt, and everything that has encumbered me,
But doing so seems like such a daunting task.
There is so much there. I know this, and so do You.
Father, this is why I need Your guidance.
Only You can help me become completely transparent
With myself, with others, and with You.
As I begin to journal, divulging my unvarnished inventory,
Provide me with courage to be thorough and honest.
Give me the grit and determination I need to purge my soul
Of each of the character flaws that have been so debilitating.
Provide me with the discipline necessary to be thorough.
As I begin this process, my insides churn with apprehension.
Because I’ve loved the darkness rather than the light,
Even though I have pretended to others that I do not,
I have to force myself to be straightforward and candid.
Father, without Your help, I cannot change a thing.
I know this, but with You empowering and guiding me,
I can be strong, courageous, forthright, and thorough,
Amen.
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