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MY PRAYER: Father,
As I try to understand Your leading
And the direction You desire for me to follow,
It seems easy enough, but it never is.
I try to predict what You are doing—
What You have in mind for me,
But I never really know what that is.
It seems like I’m constantly in the dark,
And You are never predictable.
Just when I think I understand Your pattern,
You move in a different direction—never returning
To the path I have learned to predict.
All I can do is listen to Your gentle whisper,
Which guides me toward my destiny.
Sometimes, I wish it were easier to be certain—
To know exactly where You are headed,
And what the outcome of following You will be,
But that is not my role—not my lot in life.
My job is to be keen and vigilant,
As You guide me through life’s circumstances,
Always pointing me toward higher ground,
Steadfastly focusing on Your predetermined purpose.
Having walked this road with You for a while,
I know You can be trusted completely.
This is all I need to know to sustain me,
But I wish I knew more. It’s what I always want,
—Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: When God Shakes My World

MY PRAYER: Father,
When You want my attention,
You know how to get it.
There are times when I feel
Like You aren’t really there,
Like You don’t really care,
Like my life has little meaning, purpose, or value.
Then, through my circumstances,
You shake me to the core, and I am undone.
This is when You begin Your relentless pruning.
At first, I don’t recognize what is happening,
And I cry out, ”Why me, Lord?”
I don’t like what is happening—not one bit,
So I resist Your efforts to make me
Into the person You intend for me to be.
I want to be Your favored child,
Strong, resourceful, and victorious,
But I want it to come easily, with little effort.
This never happens, of course, not for me anyway.
So, I chafe when You prune my immature ways,
Being precise in Your determined efforts
To change me from the inside out.
When I recognize what is occurring,
I bow me knee and acknowledge,
That Your hand has been hard on me,
But Your purpose has never wavered.
When You have finished, You seem pleased
With what You have pruned, knowing that
I will become stronger, more fruitful person
From each of Your efforts,
—Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: Father,
I’ve wanted relationships and possessions
That You have not intended for me to have.
I have wanted them so badly that
I’ve come before You repeatedly—
Pleading, begging, whining, and carping—
Beseeching You to grant my desires.
But all You have done is say, “No.”
Refusing to accept Your answer as final,
I have continued my relentless badgering,
Insisting that You make my will be Your own.
In my willfulness and stubbornness, I maintained
That right was wrong, and wrong was right,
While deceiving myself into actually believing
My purposes were noble, honorable, and altruistic.
In my foolishness, I have done my best
To convince myself that my way has been righteous,
But You remained unmoved, refusing to acquiesce.
Still unwilling to accept Your will over my own,
I manipulated events until frustration
And exhaustion finally overwhelmed me,
But You never budged or wavered in Your decision.
Now, at the end of all my peevish fretting,
I bow my knee and accept Your decision.
“No” it is, and “No” it shall be forevermore.
There are still parts of me that regret this,
But You are Almighty God, and I am not.
Now that I have resubmitted myself
To Your leadership, rather than to my own,
I have begun to view my situation differently.
No longer reluctant to be submissive, I acknowledge
That Your way is superior to my own,
Which I should have done from the beginning,
—Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: Father,

I feel like a wounded gazelle,

Unable to fend for myself,

As hungry beasts surround me.

My demise seems certain,

And there is no place to hide.

My friends, those who call upon Your name,

Are nowhere to be found—

Just when I need them the most.

My love has abandoned me for another,

Never looking back—not even a glance.

I am undone and badly crushed,

And those who seek what little is left,

Fight over the scraps of my being—

Over the pieces of my shattered life.


How long will You leave me exposed—

Vulnerable to ravenous predators—

To those who seek to destroy me?

Tell me, Lord, when will it be enough?

When will You protect Your wounded child?

When will You move Your mighty hand to help?

If You do not rescue me soon, there may be nothing left.

My head, which was once proud, now hangs in despair,

And my countenance is greatly diminished.

Terrifying apprehensions have overwhelmed me,

And dread of the future has become my portion in life.

I fear that my adversaries will have victory over me.

Father, provide me with a way through this thorny maze,

To a place that is safe and secure—

Free from turmoil, free from pain,

Free from heartache, and free from despair,


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MY PRAYER: Father,

Unlike most, I know I have it all together.

I am a person of substance and value.

People listen when I speak,

As words of wisdom roll mellifluously

From the essence of my being.

My life is an example for others to emulate.

At least, this was what I have considered to be true.


This is when You came and shook my foundation,

Which was not built upon anything meaningful.

Knowing my vulnerabilities and insecurities,

You rocked my world like nobody else could.

In an instant—in a flash, I was undone,

Realizing I was not the person I thought I was.

I was not the man I claimed to be.

When You revealed me to myself,

I stood naked—laid bare before Your eyes,

Unable to hide my frailties from Your scrutiny,

From the truth of who I really was.

Broken, embarrassed, and unnerved,

I recoiled, consumed with shame.


Those who claimed their loyalty abandoned me,

While my enemies delighted at my misfortune.

In an instant, Your blessings—the outward manifestation

Of all that I thought had value—vanished before my eyes.

No longer confident, I became fearful and apprehensive.

Recognizing the weakness in my foundation,

You have shaken me, revealing me to myself,

And I am lost, completely undone.


Father, when will this nightmare end? When will it be enough?

When will Your heavy hand of discipline subside,

Restoring me to a life of peace, purpose, and tranquility?

Will Your pruning cease, or will it last for a lifetime?

Only You know; only You have the answers.

Be merciful to me, Lord, for I have learned my lesson.

O, how I regret my arrogant, self-serving ways,

Which I was too foolish and arrogant to acknowledge.

I beseech You, Father, hasten the day of my restoration,

Lest my sorrows overwhelm me and leave me without hope,


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MY PRAYER: When I Am Being Tested

MY PRAYER: Father,
In my pain and anguish,
When my heart was broken,
And I thought darkness would overwhelm me,
I felt lost and all alone, but I wasn’t.
Despite how I felt, You were there with me,
Diligently working in my heart—
Stripping me of all of my pretense,
Stripping me of all of my arrogance,
Stripping me of all of my self-serving ways—
Each of which has made my life a wasteland.
Although I am Your child, I had no awareness
Of the direction You intended for me to follow.
My only concern has been obtaining relief from pain,
But Your goals have been consistently greater than mine.
I thought my anguish would never end—
That I would never smile at the future—
But I was wrong about that, as well.
I expressed the self-serving desires of my heart
And asked You repeatedly to grant them,
But You never would, which grieved me deeply.
What I have gained through my loss, though,
Has had more value than I could have imagined.
Out of the abyss, You have raised me up.
You have placed my feet on solid, immovable rock.
You have strengthened me with power
In the inner man—at the core of my being.
No longer fearful or timid, I am resolute and confident.
Instead of being apprehensive, I remain calm and sane.
It is all because You have changed my heart—
Transforming my perspective about what has value.
Without Your loving, consistent care,
I would never have learned my lessons
And would have been destined to repeat my mistakes
Over and over again, like an unreasoning animal,
Rather than like a man—the child of a King.
Refusing to allow my life to be destroyed by dissipation,
You reached into the pit—into the quagmire—
Into the emotional carnage of my dysfunction
And redeemed me, providing me with a future
That is filled with hope and purpose,
—Jack Watts

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MY PRAYER: Father,
You know my troubles like no other,
And You understand each of my difficulties.
You know that sometimes I become
So fearful that my skin grows cold,
And it feels like I can hardly breathe.
My countenance shrinks and I feel helpless.
I’m afraid of so many things.
I’m afraid of people and of being alone,
Of never experiencing happiness again,
Of not having enough income to survive.
Father, it seems like the list never ends.
I feel parallelized, and I lack the resolve
To move forward—to deal with life on life’s terms.
I need You now, Father, more than ever.
Help me. Be my strength, when I am weak.
Be my fortress, when my world crumbles.
I cannot rely on anyone but You.
At times, I’m fearful that You don’t really care—
That You are not interested in helping me.
I want to be strong and confident,
But I am not, and I know that I am not.
I acknowledge this as one of my shortcomings.
Just for today, help me put one foot in front of the other.
I have nothing to sustain me but my confidence in You,
Which I admit is often tenuous and very fragile,
Jack Watts

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